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I Run (for Ahmaud Arbery)

I am a woman in her mid 20's. I have a profound love for the arts. Painting, dancing, live music, movies, you name it! I love life and the Creator of Life. I spend most of my mornings praying, studying the Bible, listening to Spontaneous worship music, cooking breakfast,  and teasing my dog that he can't eat "people food as I can." My afternoons are spent completing certifications online to improve my skills that I can apply to my business in organizational development and event coordination. In the evenings, I have meetings, cook dinner, and my love-hate relationship for exercise, especially running. 

I have my family, friends, church family, roommates, and a dog who look forward to me arriving home and being safe... Yet, I am faced with a dilemma. Though these people care about me and my well-being, any of them nor I can change my skin color.  The fact that my skin is black in a society that disapproves of the darker skin race, along with continuous examples of raci…

An Emotionless Man...

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Is not human.
    He is a depiction of who society wants him to be.

Is not normal.
    He is a fiction character out of books you read and movies you see.

Is not at fault.
    He simply does not have a price to pay, any flaws or mistakes.

Is not real.
     He's consequently the boss of his own life he takes and to himself, he gives.

Is "not filled with emotions"
      He's robotic like emojis and refuses to emote his emotions to mean what he says and feels.

He is an Emotionless Man and he is less than the man you would want to be with.



In today's society, men are taught that they cannot show or have emotions or feelings. If they do, they cannot display it; they "must be stronger than every other person in the world." They might not always verbalize this unsaid and conditioned rule but it is well known amongst the male species. They are not taught how to balance or manage their feelings but bury it under their masculinity. They "are the alpha male …

Stop Pride 2019

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It's a movement!!!!

First off, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! With a new year, comes new responsibilities to self. One responsibility I promised myself to keep is to STOP PRiDE! Yes, small "I."



This is a new movement, a new challenge that I think I am ready to accomplish and I hope to inspire you to join me! There's just one thing... how can you stop something that you may be blind to?!?

OUCH! That hurt even as I typed it. Pride will have you completely blinded by YOU! You are and will stand in your own way without even realizing it. So let's tackle this together: what is Pride (and no, not the film).

"Pride: a feeling or deep pleasure or satisfaction derived from one's own achievements, the achievements of those with whom one is closely associated, or from qualities or possessions that are widely admired."

Most also know pride to be our ego. It is the thing that tells you that you are right and justified for feeling the way you feel about something or somebod…

woMan to bE

I had a dream about a woman.
She was intriguing.
She had on a long skirt, no bra, hair as natural as can be.
As she walked closer, I can smell the strong aroma of patchouli...
with a little hint of weed.
A hippie... a black one at that!
She had her guitar and rocked back and forth.
The closer she got to me, the more I could see
That this woman wasn't just a woman but this woman was me.

She had scars on her body, up and down her arms and neck.
Signs of pain she suffered and ounces of regret.
She walked in confidence but something was not right.
She slurred her vocabulary words and vowels as if they were tight.
She wanted to be cool, she wanted to be hip,
but all those things were natural for she was trying to fit in.

When we finally got face to face, I saw she was in a dark place.
The things she battled with, some not all her own.
Soon the smile dissipates and the anger did set.
"How was she this angry?" It could not be with me.
My eyes did not prepare me for what I would…

Travel, Girl to Central America!

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Girrrrrl (or Boy), in August 2018, I traveled to Costa Rica! I traveled with a couple of my classmates after our graduation and spent less than $1,500 on this trip!  To be honest, we had been discussing this trip for months since the beginning of our grad program but booked our adventure less than a month away! I apologize that this post is very vague but I let the pictures speak for themselves... Enjoy!!!




We stayed at a hot springs lodge by the Arenal volcano which is 3 hours from San Jose! This picture (above) was Day Two and the first day in months that the natives had seen the top of the volcano! We were so blessed to see it that morning for an hour or so!







I had the experience of a lifetime by zip lining through the jungle!
(The best meal I've ever experienced in CR!)


"Let's go to the square!" Next up, great scenery!

I am a FAILURE

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This blog post title is inspired by the saying "you are what you eat." This applies because we consume more than food on a daily basis. We watch various videos, commercials, television shows, movies, IG stories, Facebook stories, and snaps. We read different things whether they are motivating, inspiring, instructional, funny, boring, or simple. These are all things we consume within our brain's mental processes so we retent more than we think. With this consumption, we can repeat what we saw or what was processed. In other words, what we "ate" has digested in us and has now become apart of us. In my case, I have consumed thoughts and therefore, actions that have reflected failure.

My grad program gradually showed me the things I have consumed. I learned about my mindsets and habits. I had goals that I did not know I had or bad thoughts & habits I need to improve on or get rid of. Although I have many strengths (I don't want to beat myself too bad), I a…

Cute is the New Adorable

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Type "cute" into Google Search, click Images and let me know what you see Is it just me or when someone says "you're cute" and attempt to be romantic about it, it's an insult? 
Do you ever get tired of hearing that and feeling insulted or average? {In the words of this generation, "basic"}
When you hear "cute" do you not think of puppies? Puppies are adorable... therefore, cute is the new adorable.
Yes, it's a spin-off of Orange is the New Black which is a great show, btw. But when I hear cute now, I try my best to correct them. Simply saying AND believing "I'm beautiful" is setting high expectations and also kind offffff expanding people's vocabulary. Cute, sweet, pretty, hot, and fine are not typically terms of beauty you want to hear so why not set higher expectations?
Say you went out to Jazz Night or to party and you are wearin…